First comes love, then comes marriage, then comes ... oh boy oh boy (or girl)

The baby in the baby carriage

                   One of the greatest pleasures in life is finding that one true love that will be by your side until worlds end, I hear there is no greater love until you hold your baby in your arms. As I announced this week to the Internet world Baby Martinez is on its way, I can't help but smile as I await the arrival of my little one alongside my amazing husband. 

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So how did this happen exactly...LOL I think we know how it happened ;) ... all I know is God works in mysterious ways. I am so thankful for my little peanut to keep me focused on the beautiful things in life.

There's one thing that has weighed on me... I know we shouldn't question The Lord about the obstacles he gives us, but I feel in my heart it was Lilo's time to go to allow for my baby's life to grow.

You see when Lilo got sick at first it was the most devastating thing that has EVER happened to me, aside from my grandmother's passing when I was 8 years old, seeing Lilo almost die and return that one night was the scariest thing in my life. I was pregnant when it happened, and I had no clue. I was so shaken up about it, I drank some Balvenie (scotch) to calm me down, I could not sleep for about 3 days, I felt fine. I spent all night keeping an eye on Lilo and making sure she was fine, which she was. No sign of heart failure, just "a heart murmur" the vet said.

A week later I find out the good/surprising news, I'm Pregnant! I think "wow" just "wow" and then I got so excited! :) Well then Jason gets excited, then we freak out, then we celebrate, then I cry and laugh and cry again and then I say "WOW MY HORMONES!"
But now Lilo starts going down hill, I see her getting worse, slowing down, and then heart failure. Within a month of "it's a heart murmur" it becomes heart failure. I tried to keep my pregnancy a secret, just to be sure it was going to happen, but I had to tell someone other than my husband. I needed someone to keep my strong and not let me crumble when Lilo would leave me. I need someone to snap me out of any depression or craziness I might go through.

A normal sunbathing day.

Of course I rush Lilo here and there trying my best to save her, all while also keeping myself composed as morning sickness, anemia, and fatigue set in. But her final day came, her last breath in my arms as she sat in her favorite spot of the house, where she would sun bathe, only this time she knew it would be her last day sitting there.






I sat on the ground with her and pulled her face close to mine, I looked right into her eyes as she looked back at me, and she went limp. No gasp for air, no whines, nothing, just My Lilo was gone, as my little peanut grew, and to this day I feel in my heart Lilo knew there was a baby in me, and that I would be alright.

The reason for me telling you this is for another reason, why I believe The Lord listens to us and is always present in our lives. When I got Lilo 12 years ago she was born on May 31st, my grandma's death anniversary, my baby is "due" on the 31st of July,  Lilo gave birth to her babies in July. I always said to myself I won't have babies until my baby Lilo is gone, and so it happened. Too soon, yes, but God's timing is perfect. I'll be 30 in May and I'm ready for my new life. I'll always love my Lilo.

                                                 

First Tri coming up next!

From East Coast to...

Let's begin...

Yes it's been a while since my last post and I've been back living in Miami since June 2013...No, I wasn't home sick, just had a great job offer here in Miami and of course this is home. I wasn't going to turn it down.

 

Since June so many things have happened and changed in my life, the biggest being the nuptials coming up in December 2014. Yes, I'm getting married to my best friend. Sounds cliche, but he really is. Guess if you've never experienced that you should seek to fall in love with your best friend. Respecting each other, no holding back, no secrets...find it. So that's happening 12/13/14 in Cancun! Can't wait for the party to begin!

 

Well since moving back to Miami now it looks like I'll be moving away again, only this time forever. Jason is a father first and a news anchor second, we mutually decided it's best to move closer to his children in California. They're entering those teenage years and having daddy close to them seems crucial. In the meantime we also decided, of course, to transfer news markets, so he'll be working as a news anchor in L.A. and be close to his babies.

Me on the other hand I will be pursuing something I've been dreaming for years, Acting. I've never had the guts to move to L.A. on my own and now it's perfect. Start a new life with in California and work on my career as Miami has so little options for actors. Although I will be leaving my family behind (and I have a BIG Family), it's all for a good reason and they all love Jason. They know he'll take care of me and he gave my dad his word, so daddy will give him a good a** whooping if he doesn't. Rest assured I won't be a stay at home "housewife" I have a lot of goals and enthusiasm to drive me towards my destiny. I've learned a lot about myself in recent years and standing still is NOT my thing. Always evolving!

 

I will be visiting Miami all the time, it's not goodbye forever, it's an "I'll see you later" although Home will be California. I'm a Floridian through and through, but I'm off to bigger and better things. :)

 

I'll keep you posted.

 

 

 

 

 

My time in El Paso

My time in El Paso

Well it’s been just about 5 months now and El Paso is a little city that no one would expect to have so
much beauty. Can I say I love this city, no that’d be a lie, because I love MIAMI. But I must say I really like
this little charming place.

I never really had Mexican food until now, OH EM GEE it’s good, hence why my pants are getting a little
tighter, yes it’s my pants that are shrinking (get it right). I love enchiladas montadas, huevos rancheros,
and my kryptonite CHIPS AND SALSA!

The BEST chips ever! 

 
This little place by the old cemetery called L&J’s is #Amazeballs. I could eat there every day if calories didn’t matter. But I keep it healthy, I like eating healthy too makes
the body feel good. Lots of event’s around here too, and just recently had fun at the wine fest at the
local winery La Vina.

There’s actually a lot to do here between the hiking trails on the Franklin Mountains to just laying
around pool side (of course you can do that anywhere). The scenery here is so beautiful, breath taking at
times. 

Random day and Mustangs magically appear.
Lethal Mustangs CC. 

A top the Franklins when the sun is setting is such a wonderful place to be. Hiking during the day
before the scorching sun takes over is a great “get-away”, and Las Cruces is just 30 minutes away. I love Las Cruces, such a great town. The history and the aesthetics of it is so charming, they have great folks out there and New Mexican food offers something a little different from El Paso. La Posta is so amazing, and yes it’s filling!

Speaking of filling, filling my apartment has been quite depressing...On a reporters salary it ain't easy buying furniture. It's always "would I rather buying this end table or food for the week"...that's the reality. So I live off a lot of protein shakes during the week. Only working to pay your rent and car is no fun, working about 10 hours a day fooorrrrr what?...yeah a little depressing sorry but I have to be blunt. If you're a young journalist or a parent of a kid that wants to become a journalist, heads up you'll be VERY broke for the first few years of your life. So you'll continue to live off your parents or save up before moving to the city where you're getting that first job. If it weren't for the help of my bf Jason than I'd be starving. So I come home to an empty apartment that holds a bed and a folding table with a few things hanging on the walls here and there. All good cause it'll all be over soon...stay tuned.

My View 

San Elizario 

So getting back to the fun side of this little ol'town. I had the opportunity to really enjoy the history of it, heading down to mission valley where some of the oldest churches in the country reside, from the first settlers, not just in TX but the US. I was so amazed by the beauty and skills the churches hold. So nice just being there. So much to treasure in this side of Texas, where you can really forget that you are in Texas. Yes it's dry, yes it's the desert, but it's so wonderful and beautiful. I can honestly say Miami does not hold this much beauty all around, only a few spots.

So I'm always excited to check out new spots in EL Paso, of which I'm still exploring. I look forward to when Jason comes to the Borderland so we can explore different places. This is our little town which will hold a lot of memories, bad ones, and great ones. I can really understand why people who are meant to stay here for a few years, stay for a longer time, because it has charm and the people are great! Another part of history I got to experience is the demolition of the ASARCO smokestacks. Well these things have been standing in this little Bordertown for almost a century, and they (owners and the city) decided to bring the towers down. Well I obviously got a quick history lesson about these smoke stacks. Put it this way, (short version) a big percentage of El Pasoans worked at this smeltering factory for their entire lives, families grew up with their dads going to work at ASARCO, children on their drives through Interstate 10 look out their windows seeing the ASARCO towers; for many generations ASARCO was a symbol of this town, until 2013. Of course the arguments of people getting deadly diagnoses from working at ASARCO was also a part of the story. But in the end they came down, history.

So besides that Jason and I have been stronger than ever, if he were here, he'd write his side of the story. Although very difficult, we're stronger now. The distance although is a little bit difficult he does enjoy showing up here in El Paso or randomly flying me to LA. I can't deny he has shown me what love truly is and how a woman should be loved, and it's a two way street, I don't intend on only receiving. But it's been beautiful our times together none the less.

As for El Paso... its a piece of history in my heart and will always have a place in my life when I can look back and say "El Paso yup, that town where I found myself."